Sigh……

I never know what to do with myself when this… what can I call the feeling…. is it needy? I just wish I had a big warm hug to curl up in. Anxiety…. panic…. they usually lead to a depression of a different kind. They leave me with a longing for human contact that is difficult to get past.

 

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Author: learninglife203

Any time I sit down to put anything in an "about me" section I draw a blank. Let's see if after all these months of having this blog I can drum something up. Hmmm.... Well I can't commit. I have trouble doing anything with the stench of permanency attached to it. I have two children and we are a home school family and we like it! I have a lifelong history of depression and roughly the past 25 years of my life panic and anxiety.I come from a long line of alcoholics and drug addicts and crazy people I'm afraid. I have always been told I am the normal one. I guess all that sobriety must have ensured my position as the black sheep of the family. I used to write a lot but once I became a wife and mother there was no time for that anymore. I have never been good at socializing. I am awkward and never know what to say, how to say it, or when. I have been using this blog as my venting place for all sorts of things though I do hope to include some more pleasant entries in the future. I was obese just a few months ago. I have lost 40 pounds so far and am on my way to a healthy weight. I have some good "fitness friends" who have provided support, encouragement and advice which kept me from getting derailed. I am working on self improvement in a lot of ways. I can't be perfect but I can be better at the very least.

2 thoughts on “Sigh……”

    1. I figured as much! It can get a little much around “there”. So much animosity and jabbing with no regard to humans. I like the people I have made friends with there but the general population there just rubs me the wrong way.

      I went a little while without blogging here. One day I was like, “Hey! I should blog a little too!” I’m not great at it, but it’s a nice way to vent!

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